It's frustrating, trying to overcome everything I've lost. You never realize how much you'll miss a sense, nor how often you use it until you loose it. Father speaks to me, and I've only now begun to realize how little of speech is verbal. I am getting better at sense when others are around me, and where they are in reaction to myself, which has put me at ease.
I worry though, what will happen if I get separated from Father, or Rudolph. I haven't got near the skill enough to find my way on my own yet, especially in unfamiliar territory.
I don't think we're going back to England for some time; nor Ireland. I'm nervous, truth be told, but it's not safe right now. It is so strange, all this time with Father after is absence. I feel much closer to him, though it is still new to me, to have him around. I try not to take out my frustration at him. It's Ewling who suffers the brunt of it, poor thing.